‘A mountain that is your grief you can’t utter’

Helen has been awarded a professional development grant to write her second poetry collection, ‘A mountain that is your grief you can’t utter’.

Read all about it below. . .


I’m delighted to announce that I have been awarded a grant from Arts Council England to support the creation and development of my next poetry collection, with the working title ‘A mountain that is your grief you can’t utter’.

This step in my career is an important one, allowing me invaluable time the explore new, and deeply personal themes within my work. As many of you know, anthology Eighty Four was inspired by the sudden loss of my brother to suicide, who passed away in September 2017. The shift in creative focus and personal perspective brought about by this life-changing event, will be at the heart of this new writing project.

I will share works-in-progress, and my experiences of writing about trauma and grief with writing communities online, with established writers’ groups, and in education settings. Poems and updates will be posted here, on the blog section of my website. All feedback and thoughts will be encouraged, and a useful part of the editorial process.

What do I hope to achieve?

In short? I hope to find the words to express my grief.

Loss itself is a long and difficult journey. Articulating this journey is a whole other matter; a river beside the road that, even if seeming too dark, or too deep, is worth wading in…

The long version? Stick around to find out! Blog posting will begin Wednesday 7th May. Comments will be open.

Who will I be working with?

I will be delivering a trauma writing workshop for The Poetry School, and working closely with Writing West Midlands on broadening audiences scope for the new work. I’m delighted to be working with Mario Petrucci again, who will act as editor and mentor. Publishers, Faber, Nine Arches Press, Vanguard Editions, and Verve, have all agreed to read the completed manuscript. 

With thanks…

Deepest thanks to Will at The Poetry School, my father David Calcutt, Jonathan Davidson, Peter Stone from ace_national for your support and guidance, and Victoria Richards for contributing a wonderful critical review to the submission.